you know what? I just really don’t know how I feel…one half of me really wants to make it work again…and another side of me is sick and tired of these games that you play and want absolutely no part in it anymore.


cause I don’t wanna lose you know, im looking right at the other half of me, the vacancy that sat in my heart is a space that now you hold…show me how to fight for now, and ill tell you baby, it was easy comin’ back into you once I figured it out, you were right here all along…
Justin timberlake

its better to feel pain, than nothing at all…the opposite of love’s indifference…so pay attention now…im standing on your porch screaming out, and I wont leave until you come downstairs…
the Lumineers

so im guessing I cant watch the office anymore because all ill be  thinking about is us…I thought you were the jim to my pam…but I guess im just the pam to your roy…


my biggest fear is just being a memory…a memory of us 20 years down the road. maybe you wont even remember me. but ill always remember you.


if i would’ve known…

if I would’ve known that would be the last hug, the last kiss, the last “I love you” I would’ve made it more special than it was. you were, are, and always will be my first love, my first kiss, my first ”I love you”…I try to tell myself “well, you didn’t have a lot in common” or “it just wasn’t meant to be…” but in my heart I don’t feel that way at all…I don’t want to lose you..i don’t want to see you holding hands with some other girl down the hallway, telling her the same things you told me…”infinity”…that’s what it was supposed to be right? you told me ill get over you, but what it I don’t want to? what if I don’t want to see us go our own separate ways? what if the next time I see you I just want to run and hold you and kiss you and tell you how much I love you? I don’t know if we will ever be again…you said you treated me horribly yet you didn’t do anything to change that…we tried so many times and every time I would completely change who I was to make you happy, but every time I asked something of you, you would say ” I can’t change who I am” or “I forgot”…how do you forget to ask your girlfriend on dates? how do you forget to make her feel special? you don’t. if I would’ve known that was going to be the last goodbye….I would’ve made it last a lifetime. xoxo, me.



im guessing that wont happen but hey…a girl can dream right?

so here is the plan I guess…I wont expect you to do anything because that’s probably what you will do…ill pretend to be okay, ill try to forget…but I can tell you right now that that will not happen…


you know whats really sad about all this? im actually expecting you to show up at my house with a dozen roses, begging at my feet…